A Finite Man

       Absolutely the best! It seems that the only time I ever engage in any kind of romantic relationship is during the cold seasons! I have no idea why but  I don't need that answered, it just gives myself some personality in my opinion! At any rate it looks very good that I have a special someone for me this winter and hopefully it'll last many winters after that. I met him through pounced. Strangely I've had plenty of suitors (or maybe it isn't so strange *shrugs*) but this one is just different we connected immediately. I'll save the gooey details. The only thing is that he lives in Colorado =\. We're not going to make it solid until we meet, which we see sometime in December. If we do well together, we're planning on spending Christmas together and new years ^^ it's going to be wonderful. I'm using this opportunity to try out some new things that I've learned from past relationships and just life in general.

     The even bigger news is that I wrote an email to my Mom basically to bring out the reality in things. I said, in short, that I'm tired of her living in denial, and I'm tired of living a lie, I am not "fixed" I am still (and always will be) this way (bisexual-attracted ta males) and I'm not going to fight it. I will continue to seek relationships and will not respond to any hate or emotional blackmail like last time. This time I'm not standing down. I also said that she needs to look past the fact that this is the end of her world for me and just Love me. Needless to say the next morning I was trembling in my boots when I saw her open her email first thing. I locked myself in my room to avoid her. To my utter surprise she came in and told me (in short) 'I will always love you no matter how you are and what you do with your life. I've just been reacting in fear for you (and other things). You ARE an adult and I should let you live how you want to live.' For a good 20 minutes I was trembling, not in fear anymore but in shock. But it made me feel so relieved, so easy. I don't know what happened but I guess I got through to her!! It's amazing! She has yet to bring it up with father, but I'm certain it will all be good news, for me at least.
       Now I want to know how they would take me having a boyfriend. I wonder how they would react or treat me or what they would think if I told them "I'm going to go visit my boyfriend now for a while" or "so and so (they know he's a mate) is coming over". *shrugs* I can only hope it isn't too hard. They always seem to be wanting to know what I'm doing so I'd have to tell the truth. Either way I'm happy ^_^ and needless to say so is my prospective mate.